When you are on the computer or your phone, what sort of activities or websites inspire happiness, creativity, wholeness, the joy that makes one lovable to another. Instead of activities that make you feel bad or inspire feelings of doom, pain, anger, despair, etc, so on and so forth.
I feel like everything on the computer makes me feel bad now, or it makes me feel good momentarily but then makes my life worse in the long term (social media, porn). But i am trying to focus back on what is pleasurable and good for my soul
Lately I've been enjoying browsing atchan! and I also like looking at wikipedia but my brain doesnt work well most of the time and it becomes hard to parse the information. I want to hear about what everyone else is doing on the computer that makes them happy
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go down rabbit holes and find interesting art, music, writing pieces, games, vns, et cetera. engage with them earnestly and wholeheartedly. flood ur brain with experiential joys. truthfully, i think just being curious is enough to make good use out of a computer. and not necessarily just being curious online! i've discovered many cool sites and projects by looking up things from the real world and seeing how far i can go. drunk pig on youtube dot com is pretty good too.
>>3mtr6ppqwjs2h
have you read autopraxis? oh my god, i could rave about it for hours
honestly... not a lot (;´Д`)
i find mainstream social media completely exhausting these days ... i used to just let it hypnotize me with instagram reels and, idk. i cant do it anymore. it makes me depressed
bsky doesn't make me feel suuuper bad but, it does kind of feel like a waste of time? its not so different from all social media in that sense. im very project oriented these days. most of what i enjoy doing isnt strictly on the internet but rather just getting engrossed in acquiring new skills and using them productively
second life is still a lot of fun - i enjoy building in there. its a bit of a brain suck though. but maybe im just too productivity oriented.
https://lobste.rs/ is one of my favorite sites recently. i enjoy reading hacker news (woke)
also ive been making more of an effort to collect rss feeds in a reader. its actually a lot of fun
>>3mu6srtfiuv2h
it really is a skill worth cultivating these days. to be able to know enough things about things to actually have something to grab ahold of in the vast flood of information we are used to but not usually capable of making sense of without for example algorithmic feeds or radio algorithms or god forbid, advertising.
I've found a lot of fun and silly websites through Are.na. it's kind of like pinterest, but with a heavier emphasis on graphical design and artistic projects.
link (https://www.are.na/)
Are.na wiki-page (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Are.na)
Messing around with novel G'MIC filters in Krita is probably the most fun I can have when making art, so finding a bunch of archaic/eccentric sites for image manipulation makes me feel like a kid in a candy store.
>>3mtob627d4t2p
As of late, the algorithms on all my YouTube accounts have been consistently abysmal, so I started throwing my favs into a playlist. (https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLXZe529LUYvc). I'll update this periodically. I'll also probably create a separate playlist for music/mixtapes/setlists.
On top of this, I've been doing some inventory on my PC. Putting all my files into directories that make sense. Deleting clutter. Categorizing digital projects, saved art, and all the rest.
There's a very meditative quality about doing these rudimentary organizational tasks. It feels much more gratifying than the absent-minded scrolling I tend to do when I'm on the beeper.
sometimes i go of sites and sort by oldest, or jump to the last page of an index. you can find stuff by more obscure and forgotten artists. someone who made an account and then forgot about it and gathering dust. my friend called this 'digging' once and that seems like an apt metaphor.
maybe its the workflows or that times were simpler. but i often find pure intention in the ways that works were created. my theory goes that there was no real incentive to get likes or to be noticed from posting stuff on the internet, so there was less of people chasing trends and more just making the things that were on their mind. nonetheless, i think nostalgia is maybe the strongest feeling out of all...
i've amassed quite the collection of pixiv bookmarks. i will share some of mine, starting with this post: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/24790754
does anyone else do this kind of 'digging' for art. i would be happy if people shared their favorite,s and i would like to hear what you see in it as well and what makes it special. sources are welcome, and if you know anything about the artist that is of course nice as well!
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some real gnar higurashi fan art
> When administering the injection yourself at home, you can choose from four sites: the abdomen (at the level of the navel) or the left and right thighs. In some cases, a family member may administer the injection. It seems that by having the effectiveness of the medication checked weekly at the clinic, you can receive compensation sufficient to live on. Since it’s three times a day, I wonder if they’re getting the second shot during lunch break at school.
(deepl tl)
Lost this piece a year ago when my phone was stolen. I tried finding it again, but the original artist's blog was deactivated (I couldn't remember their handle also, which definitely didn't help matters). I spent an embarrassingly long time combing through blogs that might've reblogged it, but I had no better luck. I wasn't exactly fixated on finding it or whatever, but every now and again, I'd think to myself, "Oh man, it really sucks that I lost that thing. I was supposed to save it to my PC but I got really lazy (ﾟ血ﾟ#)!"
I was thinking about it yesterday, and as a sort of Hail-Mary, I scribbled down my best approximation of the piece and started asking around. In hindsight, I should have done this much sooner, cause, within two hours of my first ask, somebody had graciously sent it back to me.
It's easily my favorite fanwork for a9. I was afraid I might have built it up too much, what with all my searching and yearning, but seeing it even now still makes my rotten, decrepit heart well with joy.
>>3mxtcegr74s2f
it has a really unique style i can see why you liked its really really pretty!!! thas my favorite scene in a9
for almost a decade i've been collecting drawings i find on the net that i like. the main motivation is for references when drawing but it is nice to have them around because theyre very nice.
couldn't find the artist of this one, originally from twitter, from around 2021
>>3mxtcegr74s2f
i love this, my favorite scene from the ova. and i really like the artist's take on the characters' hair
>>3mxtcegr74s2f
yes this is very cute.. also one of my favorite scenes as well. thank you for sharing
i am eating dried mangoslices rn wbu
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>>3mxlbmnnrzk26
bzzzzzzzzzt wrong
dried cumquat thing that i suggest to try
it's literally bittersweet
>>3mxlbmnnrzk26
I like the peanut butter versions of these.
>>3mxkveunvb42g
Regrets:
1. citric acid my mouth hurt
3. huty mouyh
2. hurtm outh
5. orwww
4. owww
>>3mxokwpksdc2j
i've had the peanut butter cliff multiple times. edible but it's very unsatisfying
mind if any of you share your experience and tips with meds and their usage?
ive been on and off about antipsychotic meds for like two, almost three years
its just the basics, like lorazepam and risperidone and aripiprazole that kind of stuff
ive been using it like a booster, contrary to what my psychiatrist told me to do, only using it when nearing important events or work like a month to few weeks before because it stabilizes my schedule and made me much more productive, but the meds discipline is hard to keep on and usually i started to forget the schedule after said event is finished and the urgency is gone, until next time
also not to mention it caused significant weight gain worsening my body dysmorphia
one of my friend actually told me that im not supposed to use lorazepam for straight two years, but for some reason my psychiatrist always gave new batch of it to me every month so idk
Do not abuse your medicine (;´Д`)
its hard not to idk bcs maintaining meds discipline is really hard and theres not much happening in my life rn
though yeah maybe it fucked my brain
>>3msbsaqvn6m2d
i think i'm going to try ask my psychiatrist to dial down on the meds
i think i need to be productive independent of it, especially lorazepam seems dangerous for long term
Read > https://mangadex.org/title/80422e14-b9ad-4fda-970f-de370d5fa4e5/made-in-abyss
Very excited for new movie in a couple months, not sure how long it'll take to get subbed / western release, but very excited. New manga chapters have been a little more frequent also and very excited to see where things are going.
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>>3mshnxkpri322
mori calliope jumpscare lol
my friend was so hype last night about the mori calliope news
my friend was never the same since he heard the news his eyes have been glowing red
i just reread and caught up with the manga recently and ohhhhhhh my god the new quad amputee loli/shota twins that were introduced in the new arc are like bait for me specifically. I really hope the scene of them wiggling around in the bath is just as gratuitous in the movie as it was in the manga
>>3mxbdctbyxs2t
they are so so cute,, absolutely galaxy brained character design u
out of context pages/clips
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the classic
yakuza reincarnation
My Broken Mariko
Black Jack
i pushed some changes that broke oauth and by extension posting for everyone and i didnt test it properly before sending it off... so it was broken for ~1 day
im sorry its fixed now
otsukaresama admin-chan
Thank you ＼(＾o＾)／
the registration form was broken for a bit... its fixed now. sorry if you tried to sign up and it didnt work （・Ａ・）
tsukumizu's new manga has started serialization
https://mangadex.org/chapter/ded552b5-36de-425c-8d16-364cb5ad06c8
all hail tsukumizu!
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I really enjoyed what has been published so far.
I've never been assigned to a submarine, but I have been assigned to a very small DDG during my time in the Navy, and it struck me as very well crafted. I can tell when an Author has researched their work very well by how it matches with my lived experiences, sometimes.
Girls' Last Tour was excellent, and I'm wondering what sort of very human and very empathetic pains will emerge from a tale fundamentally concerned with a culmination to war.
These days, it feels tragically relevant.
Anyways, I am going to be thinking about Canned Universe for a long time.
wahoo new chapter.. i really liked it!
thematically this seems to lead to humanity inventing the simulation program where shimeji simulation takes place? there was someone who looked a lot like majime at the end o-o
now featuring bunny girl prostitution ＼(＾o＾)／
mi lukin e ni la mi lukin e lipu ni la lipu ni li kama sin la mi pilin pona
(´ー`)
a friend sent this picture and asked
>Is there a name for this genre of art? Like an overly detailed doomsday 20th century war?
this is downstream of harajuku subculture brands. jirai-kei / yami kawaii specifically if you just look at the general composition of the anime girl. but there is other stuff going on that is more like, they were inspired by that stuff and made something in a different cultural context. but idk if you were asking more generally cos there is a whole history lesson to pick apart in that piece lol.
the angle of overly detailed doomsday 20th century war? i dont know if there is a name for it. the moe military stuff kinda intersected with the cyberpunk/street wear look that has been popular in the past decade. and the op schizo stuff is probably entirely an american thing. but that is not to say there arent a lot of people going for this look because it seems like its a natural next step
so you had cyberpunk in the 80s. and then the west and japan recycled that forever. neon katakana script became cool in america. that kinda thing. and then you had ghost in the shell, battle angel alita, lain. this all took off here. and then that became cool again in the 2020s w cyberpunk 2077 as post-cyberpunk and what have you.
in the background you had nerds doing military moe stuff in japan. the girl is the weapon. (kancolle -> girls frontline -> arknights -> blue archive) and this inevitably crashed into streetwear and cyberpunk in the mainstream.
at the same time you had alt culture japan. you had gothic lolita that sublimated into the mental health crisis that was being grappled with. menhera stuff. sickly girls cute. (evangelion rei, lain -> yami-kawaii -> jirai-kei) this is where you get girls eating pills and cutting and ED and stuff as an anime subculture. yea its incestuous :-(
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in america here we had military surplus taking off in the second hand market. lots of this stuff was exported to japan as a style. i learned abt this from (name omitted). i think it started with some fashion week thing but it took off like wildfire. over time it became a part of street wear and esp in japan, who had largely stopped innovating with war since it became a crime with article 9 and disarmament and stuff. people were sick of war and their family members dying left and right. so it escaped into fiction. battleship yamato (1974) is a good example, literally resurrecting a sunken ship from ww2 but its okay now because its in space and not on the pacific ocean
so basically this all converged into this t-shirt. sorry this is not helpful in any way shape or form to answer your question but i had fun thinking about it
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anything i missed, anons?
I spend a lot of time combing Anime for really cool outfits, armor pieces, and so on.
Alongside scenery, which I've also made a little thread for, it's kind of my favorite thing. Before I learned to draw, all I could do was kind of collect work that appealed to me, and I think that weird habit has stuck with me today. here are a handful of pieces from my 'Outfits and Armors' folder - I hope you'll share yours with me, too!
Caterpillar Bodysleeve.
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I've always liked the somewhat unflattering shako-style cap in this one.
... I am weirdly obsessed with this little freak's trinocular goggles and full-face quilted mask.
What's up with you, homie?
Why are you so cute?
fishman6991
i have too much artworks stashed away on my computer... would take a while to collect good examples of clothing art that i like
dont remember the artist, and reverse searching didnt help. i remember they were russian though
Loss on Rednote (ID:95697560883)
ive always been super fond of pharoah sanders kazuko in an abandoned tunnel - https://youtu.be/Y7EGQzn8e1k
tenniscoats did a similar thing as well, which im quite fond of. not sure if its a tribute to the above or not but they're similarly mapped in my head: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7MwdLCVB9xk
what's yours?
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https://tenniscoats.bandcamp.com/album/tasmania-bootleg
> This recording was made in the audience by a friendly local and is an entirely faithful capture of the atmosphere that surrounded Tenniscoats during this time. You can literally hear the audience becoming completely entranced by Saya and Ueno’s performance. I was honoured to play alongside them for this show. It’s not something I talk about much, but my first life in music was as a drummer and a flicker of that life is captured here
"heathen earth" is my favorite throbbing gristle release, not quite as gritty and nightmarish as second annual, and not quite as austere and quirky as jazz-funk, it manages this middle ground that truly feels oneiric and surreal, no other gristle album feels to me as specific to the internet age's twilight than this one
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgeHzn_PJGE [video]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmkZPCB5PsI [high quality rip]
>>3muqjfadfg226
this is wonderful, thank you.
Favorites in descending order. Because of how frequently I've migrated to fresh accounts, over the course of six years, I have lost and subsequently found the DnB set, which I linked below, a total of four times. I decided to wisen up today and rip it to my phone so that I won't lose it again (~_~;)
https://youtu.be/qqgmrDE4p40 [17:02, Fusion Jazz]
https://youtu.be/LqneyjLXSBM [31:36, DnB]
https://youtu.be/3eVt3NvhiZ8 [2:00:12, Footwork]
https://youtu.be/S2rOh6dCwao [4:11, Pop-Rock]
https://youtu.be/TMXg9ZBUoGQ [52:55, Indie Rock]
>>3mwrao6tkr224
Luv Exposure's きららCarat✖︎ performance would eclipse with my list, but I don't think anything besides a small snippet was ever posted online (https://x.com/cocoameltglt/status/1899443914769363234)
hihi! ive been trying to find for a couple days a game that feels like a very specific kinda movie ... idk if it exists! i just rly want something that feels kinda slow and echoey and mumbley. i just rly want something that has that feeling and is in a big city - like its hard for me to get excited for something like deltarune because i dont live in a small town, yknow? i want something that feels like where i live! hope thats not too silly
none of these are exactly it, but the games that get kinda close that ive found are : demonschool, yiik, deltarune (ofc), london seirei tanteidan, labyrinth.os, kowloons gate, knuckle sandwich, twewy? i think this game might not exist lol but i figure i should ask. thanks!
gmod dark rp while listening to Leader by tek lintowe
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a thread for discussion of kigurumi
>>3mr7mhlsfsc2d
holyshit where the F is doll weekend going down? I'm guessing not the STATES
>>3mr7txnyxwc2d
guangdong afaik
I did an academic paper on Kigu for College, once, and I got to cite some of ppilotco's very informative 'zines on the topic. If you're just curious about Kigu as a subculture, or you're interested in getting started, I think they're nice reads.
I have a friend who looks like this one.
One of the things I find myself really concerned with (and I don't have an outlet for my hyperfixation often) is really beautiful anime scenery.
I really like environments and structures; I hope you'll share some settings and places you like with me. I'm probably going to turn my phone upside-down and shake until my folder feels lighter.
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sonny boy got some great stuff
>>3mtvl2h3u7k2n
i looove sonny boy it's definitely one of my favourite shows of the 2020s
>>3mtwckkfxu22n
yesssss it's so good. it's got mid-air theif too, on the ost for episode 8,, it is my favourite.
This one was an old press image for the not-especially-great Yume Nikki 3D Platformer.
I think it is really striking and it was my computer background for a very long time.
i've been struggling with intense anxiety around time management lately.
i work a part time retail job that leaves me with a decent amount of free time (depending on the week), but trying to figure out how to use it is agonizing. whenever i have a day off, i always feel so overwhelmed by the amount of things i wanna do (art, video games, language learning, etc.) that it paralyzes me and i just end up laying in bed all day. it also just makes me more anxious trying to choose something to do knowing my time is limited, and that i'll have to go back to work soon, and that i could be called in to cover a shift at any time.
i've flatlined on basically all my hobbies and passions as a result. i've barely done any drawing or writing or any other creative activity. my language practice has lagged severely. even more passive activities like reading or gaming or watching movies has been difficult. all i've really had the focus for is work and chores, and scrolling pretty much fills the rest of my time.
is there anyone else here that deals w/ this? how do you carve out time for the things you care about without getting stuck in the stress loop? i would appreciate any advice or techniques or even just to commiserate with others.
if you can't directly reduce the work and stress in your life it helps to get better at dealing with said stress so it doesn't become the thing that occupies your time.
my usual remedy is to institute habits of meditation, exercise (you have to find a way that works for you - my drug is running) and devotion. when i find myself feeling overwhelmed by stress, i've usually neglected one of them. . these may not all be palatable to you.
if the clinical way is your style, you could try seeing a specialist. there are some that specialize in workload management. there is medication. not to dissuade you - i personally found this pursuit useless because my problem came from within and it was something i had to work on with utter self love
best of luck
>>3msttushzie22
thank you for your response! it's definitely more a problem within myself than it is with my workload, so idk if the clinical path will help much either. i think that part will improve once i can find a better job.
i'd be rly curious to hear you talk a bit more about devotion and how it helps for you. exercise would definitely be good i think - there's lots of forest trails near my apartment that i should be utilizing. meditation is something i've tried a few times too but i've never been able to get into a consistent rhythm with it. i'd like to try practicing that more also.
I've historically struggled with a lot of stuff and am presently struggling a little with the fact that I have an "every single day" course load-out at the college I am presently attending, and that it requires a two-ish hour commute every day to get there and back.
The way I'm handling it is I am organizing the work visually by deadline on my dorky whiteboard, which helps me know what the work is, and frankly, gives me a small sense of confidence when I erase a task.
Frequently, I am coming home tired from leaving at 5:00 AM and arriving home at 3:00-5:00PM depending on which day I am there. I am taking the loss there and just sleeping mid-day so I feel better. I timed it and an hour or two fixes me right up, usually.
I am committing about an hour or two to a task while I work. When I reach a point where I feel I am deeply disinterested, I am rotating into drawing or socializing with friends for a moment, and then I come back to it. This has been helpful because sometimes I hate my artwork if I spend too much time looking at it, and I certainly hate my tasks if I spent too much time looking at it.
Having a rotation helps me not hate either.
Meditation in the shower.
Yummy sourdough toast.
Doing something to emotionally stimulate yourself.
There are lots of little ways to keep your head above water and make small spaces for things you love.