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>>3mrnfumccgy25
whys he looking at me like that

skipper

the humble hopper

what helped for me was to realize i could decouple the feeling of nostalgia from the object its directed at. whether its a childhood favourite that sucks or a childhood favourite that rules, i find more value in holding onto my experience and memories of the thing rather than the thing itself. i mean, art is such a mercurial phenomenon. it feels like every time i return to something i enjoyed before, whether it was 10 days or 10 years ago, it's a completely new experience. and more often than not, my opinion is especially coloured by the context i experienced it in (example: i feel little nostalgia for SimCity Creator on the Wii, but lots of nostalgia for playing it in my mom's old living room).

idk. i get the fear of falling into the trap of comfy insularity too, but i don't see a reason to be afraid of your taste crystallizing unless you're really just dedicated to passive consumption and hostile to any alternative. in truth, we all gotta find our own middle path between permanent novelty and permanent familiarity. the best thing to me isn't just to have lots and lots of new experiences, or a bunch of old experiences frozen in time, but to have a unique set of experiences built over a lifetime. of well-trodden classics and newer boundary-pushing works and even all the awkward outdated memories that still linger. it's cultivating that shameless eclecticism that counts the most i think.

i dunno if this makes sense or if i'm just rambling bcuz it's late and i'm high, but this is how i like to think about it at least.

pic related (game i loved as a kid that still whips ass to this day)

>>3mscqqxtdiu22
all this has really shifted for me as i've gotten older. i don't know exactly when but i feel like i understand art and stories so much more than i did 10 years ago

>>3msd6jyudb226
yeah it is about the path i guess right? like you're building a unique experience as a human and there are lots of ways to do that

Brands and media companies appeal to nostalgia for nostalgia's sake... I'm as sick as anyone of "remember this movie? what if we remade it?". But at the individual level, looking back on old books/games/movies, I'd rather think of it as thoughtful retrospection; I find that meeting with old favorites becomes an interesting exercise when you consider that something – yourself – has changed since the last time you met. It's splitting hairs... but I feel like nostalgia is to drag old things into the present unchanged whereas retrospection is to bring yourself back to those old things and see in them something new. The market pandering to nostalgia builds a lot of cynicism in me but I don't want to apply that same cynicism to my own interaction with past works.

Italo Calvino: "For the fact is that the reading we do when young can often be of little value because we are impatient, cannot concentrate, lack expertise in how to read, or because we lack experience of life. This youthful reading can be (perhaps at the same time) literally formative in that it gives a form or shape to our future experiences, providing them with models, ways of dealing with them, terms of comparison, schemes for categorising them, scales of value, paradigms of beauty: all things which continue to operate in us even when we remember little or nothing about the book we read when young. When we reread the book in our maturity, we then rediscover these constants which by now form part of our inner mechanisms though we have forgotten where they came from. There is a particular potency in the work which can be forgotten in itself but which leaves its seed behind in us... For this reason there ought to be a time in one’s adult life which is dedicated to rediscovering the most important readings of our youth. Even if the books remain the same (though they too change, in the light of an altered historical perspective), we certainly have changed, and this later encounter is therefore completely new."

I do like your idea of trying to find out what it is about past art that gave it a certain feel, rather than just believing that it was inherently better. Putting actual thought and dissecting your favorite books, movies, albums, etc. could help you put words to your tastes and as a result help you find more new things that you'd like too.

That's something that I think separates people who are stuck in the past, versus people who just like to visit it for the experience. People who tend to be obsessed with nostalgia only ever talk about how things were better back then, and suck now without diving into why any further than "it had soul." They're usually just passive consumers who are put off from trying anything new, simply because it's unfamiliar to them. Once you start to find out the parts you do like from past media, you can easily find artists/authors who are inspired by them or replicate a certain feel without it being a direct rip-off of the original.

>>3mrbvig5qlc23
check this out
it could be us

>>3mrdmklflib2y
I did not know you were simply looking for a dance-partner, so to speak.

I'mb sowwy.
You gan kill me.

kicking rocks

>>3mrdmklflib2y
ig "play" is a stretch too cus I have not played much of either in a year and have played alot more strive lol but I will add you anyway

>>3msa7u226hj2z
didn't realize who "noni" was until just now
hopefully we'll actually play instead of just talking about playing :-)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6uYLz7WAJA
robbie

>>3mrbcdqkytk2d
poppin in to say this is boppin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EA-WU_qWlL4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yZenn3bHIHs

Something like this?

I'm speculating still that the small dots might be numbers; if they are, small dots in the center of the Semaphore Position might denote "Number" too - I've noticed that, at least in this transmission, the dot is only in letters 1-9 and 0.

Unfortunately, that doesn't explain what the struck circles are, so maybe I'm wrong here.

Notably, "Bravo-Zulu" or BZ is usually semaphore for "Congratulations" or "Good Job".

Potential for one of the bottom bullets, which seems to just be "BZ" to essentially be "Congrats".

I doubt it will be relevant, but the other half of Semaphore was Pennant Code - just in case we need it, it's here for reference.

... I was puzzling about this in bed this morning realized the file is named "Basic Arithmetic" and so, I've probably got this inside out, and this is a set of small math-problems.

I think I've got it inside out, and these letters are predominantly their semaphore number equivalents.

It occurs to me I misidentified 'Golf' as 'Zulu'.

Is that 5 A 5 with "A" as a shorthand for 'Addition'?
5+5?

7 D 3 with "D" (or maybe zero?) as a shorthand for 'Division'?
7 / 3?
7 0 3 ?

I haven't figured out the branching mid-link dots; if it's mirroring the semaphore position, the linking dots might be '12' and '3'

3 (some sort of branching operation symbol involving '12' and '3') = 9 ?

Maybe it is appending extra numbers to a lead number, and it's 312 or 33?

I think the bottom row is:
2 7 6 4 or perhaps 2 7 6 0 .

1 (some sort of branching operation symbol involving '18' (?) and '2'(?) ) concluding in an arrow?

The last symbol, 'H'/'8' with three terminating branches leads me to believe the 'x's may represent a zero value or something.

Maybe that's 8,000?

cat invasion!!!!!!!!!

not sure if this is actually funny but it doesn't need to be

>>3mrjd7dk4xc2c
>saying no to mommy
are you insane?

I like Ichirin, and I like Wriggle and Yuuka as a little pair, and I like Medicine Melancholy a lot, but none of them have anything on the raw visual appeal of Mizuhashi Parsee...

too many to choose from, but Fujiwara no Mokou has been one i've felt a strong personal connection to. a real "she's literally me" kind of character for me.

its resien because rabbits are from the moon

https://wrigglenightbug.download/

>>3mrgetqrjci23
This was excellent - thank you.

>>3mqwicb3mt22x
this was my experience for sure - i consider myself relatively diligent with hygiene. i wash my bed sheets regularly and do most of the things 'beauty influencers' say will give you glowing but in reality but it took some very specific incantations for my skin to not be perpetually irritated. so much of it is genetics...

>>3mrdvyyrkiq22
v true. it is a perpetual effort to craft one's appearance and even if u can learn to be comfy presenting a certain way it's a lot of effort. i think there is somewhere a nice middle ground in terms of effort v result, but i have yet to reach it.

>>3mrdvyyrkiq22
not saying it's necessarily the same for you, that discomfort might very well be due to a genuine discordance you feel with that kind of femininity. but nothing feels immediately natural to anyone, it always takes time and work for a way to be to become one's normal and discomfort in the intervening period is totally normal.
personally, i was using this sort of "this is not for me" reasoning as a way to cope with my anxiety with going through that period for a long time and it's set my personal development back by several years. but it's just how i am now and im very glad i was eventually able to make it through that.
this may or may not be the case for you, and it's totally fine if it isn't, but i want to make sure that seed is planted in ur head so that in the event that you are going through something similar to me my experience can serve you. (ftr im far from hyperfeminine and there are a lot of traditionally feminine things i dont do, it doesnt mean one has to go "all the way" so to speak)

>>3mqwicb3mt22x
i know what u mean i just see people do like a million products sometimes and i think basic stuff works better for some people
like obviously if that doesn't work it doesn't but i worry some people are overdoing it

>>3mrftz7ws7m2j
oh absolutely, even in the case that you have specific skincare needs (and that is most people, i dont know the actual stats there but neutral skintype is definitely less than half of people), they will be served by a couple things that best cater to your needs and u dont rly need anything more than that + moisturising + a healthy lifestyle.

skincare brands are kind of a problem here though (and it's even worse for haircare) because they dont do anything to dispel all the common myths around skincare and will even use them as marketing tactics (common one for haircare is advertising a product as moisturising when that is precisely what a haircare product shouldnt do unless it's for ur scalp, none of those products actually moisturise but they still say they do).

so for the average person that thought process that should work of trying a product that is advertised as targeting your problems, seeing it doesnt work as well as you expected, piling on another such product hoping itll do more, and so on and so on, doesnt actually end up working at all lol
it's only when u know exactly what active ingredient you need that you can really achieve that

old picture, used to find ghost pipes (monotropa uniflora) growing behind where i lived when I was in virginia
they're a parasitic plant so they don't photosynthesize or produce chlorophyll

this thread is inspiring me to look at plants more i should look around for interesting ones, anyone know cool stuff that grows in minnesota?

>>3mrao6jcye42u
If there's any nearby: Fireweed, Northern Gooseberry, Prairie Smoke and Wild Lupine

Daucus Carota. The dark red floret at the center of the umbel is very visible. It made identifying these ones easy. They can be forraged for food, but these ones were roadside and likely contaminated with polutants.

scarlet beebalm :)

limitless paradise (harada's first movie I think?) was restored and uploaded to the web a couple years ago. I haven't watched it yet though.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5IWXAjHXCo8

>>3mr6adyoq4k2d
thx. I'm rly in love with him past few days even tho I first saw midori so long ago... his lullabye bullying film is gnar

this is sick af.. cant upload its over limit https://va.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_t948auAySK1zkp0l7.mp4

>>3mr6tne57bp22
thx for sharing that segment - i found many of the stills for this BOO(?) chara so im so happy to see the animation parts too - this artist has me by the balls - ive already known since midori I saw when younger - but i connected to their political nature this past two days... his work has strong messages, and he's brave to stand strong and be resistant to what he perceives as nefarious forces in the world - rejecting censorship and downvoting fascism - in my books honorable causes with tangible sacrifice -

im copy pasting this from one of his websites that resonates with me

Harada draws on thin paper. He outlines the paper with a pigmented water-based pen and then colors it with paint or design markers. This has been his consistent approach since his first work, "Weak Dinosaur-chan" (1976), when he was 14 years old, to the present.
Thin paper curves when colored.
When he was a lecturer at an art university, a student asked him, "How do I film curved paper?"
In commercial animation, the paper is held down from above with a transparent, non-reflective glass.
However, this increases the filming effort.
He also read an interview with an American cinematographer who said, "Placing a filter or something between the camera lens and the subject will, technically, blur the image."
To that end, Harada places weights of about 10 books on the warped paper for a day.
However, the paper still sometimes warps. Paper is as tough as a weed.
For this reason, the Kiryukan filming stand has low-adhesion double-sided tape attached to all four corners.
But even so, the paper is still warped.
However, this results in natural textures, noise and shadows, which leads to the assertion that the images were drawn by hand and photographed by a human being, not a machine.
The act of actually creating something with your hands has a positive psychological effect and has long been used in cognitive therapy and other methods.

do you still feel a pressure to conform or have you found a way out

>>3mr2j2dqu2c22
i still struggle with avoidant behavior but i've felt like less of a husk within the past few months. when i was 18/19 i thought i was going to escape my malaise with prescription drugs but none of that really turned out, i'm getting therapeutic treatment for borderline now which i think has helped. i also think pursuing irl relationships has helped me in some ways, as it's less feasible to maintain a persona that's contradictory with your mannerisms and relationship to your body and whatnot compared to online where you get to be an avatar that produces text, though obviously this doesn't mean there's no masks we wear in social situations, in fact they can be more subtle and insidious. but yes i think i've been getting better ＼(＾o＾)／

>>3mr2o6axeuv2o
you still have a lot ahead of you but it never gets harder when you've lived through your 20s. that was the hardest time for me looking back i feel like i didn't know how to do anything and i was just bumbling around and getting hurt

>>3mqupggfata22
This is what my grandma told me once: not everyone make their day, some people need their day made for them. As I experience it, A) not everyone wears their heart on their shoulder B) not everyone is driven by nerdy passionate things...
I also find surface chitchat unbearable...

>>3mqur2pnkr22x
but also, just having shared interests isn't enough for me, that can be alright, but I find i gravitate or, connect easier with certain people Im not sure - but they just bring something and if you both can bring something you can enjoy eachothers company - and it doesnt have to be a result of shared interests. like, stylists who attract stylists tend to have a good time.

>>3mquqytrte32z
>>3mqur2pnkr22x
when i referred to strangers i think i narrowed the scope a bit too much. i have this issue even with people i consider my friend. it is to a lessened degree of course, we get along. but i'm still an alien. i contort myself and nothing feels quite natural.

as a result, i look at envy with how many people are satisfied with what they have. and sometimes normie strangers, well something about their way of life seems enviable. i figured i should try. surely there has to be some way for me!

>>3mqupggfata22
>i can't tolerate strangers at all. i find small talk exhausting, and i find that in most conversations i hit a ceiling.
could you give us specific examples of these scenarios? like, people you've met, what circumstances you met them, and how the interactions went?

for me, i work at an VR amusement place, my job is like an escape room host where I brief people and monitor their games but beyond that I don't have to get very in-depth and in that circumstance, yeah, people generally don't go into their passions or interests even when asked and can sometimes seem disinterested in talking, but I think the situation that they're being engaged in and the dynamic between us plays a big factor. Contrast that with my younger years, where I went to a few house parties where people would just spill their guts about all sorts of stuff.

>>3mqushcwzyu22
expanding from what others have said, i don't think you're "missing out" on much of anything. most of the time, those strangers are in the same boat too. either living in the small sphere of people and things they connect with, or surrounding themselves with lots and lots of acquaintances, or somewhere between. i get how that yearning for connection can be, wanting that ephemeral secret to belonging that it seems like everyone else has, but i don't know. there isn't really one. we're all just kinda carving out our own ways to belong, even normies do it.

i still feel that FOMO pain sometimes too but idk. i have my wife. i have a handful of close friends. it's not much but it's more than enough for me.

>>3mqshcceths2v
you're a mad cunt and its admirable.

nice

>>3mqshcceths2v
can we get a breakdown here

>>3mqspmoo3k22v
bread on the bottom, spread avocado, smoked arctic char, onion, pickle plank and sprinkle of dill and salt. i also ate a follow-up where i scraped the fat off the char skin and used half that half avocado for the spread and that was a slight improvement

>>3mqsryerits2v
ok yum

cuddles w/ boo

yeah. cuddles w/ boo as well

I'll dream about a world of fear and hope

good night atchan
let's have a good dream tonight! ( ´ω`)

>>3mqqxrrss6k2v
excellent wish!